Ecstatic. Truth is that he is I am not. All the apparent movements are as they pleases to the ultimate intelligence. How can anything be wrong and who says it to be wrong or right? Perception of duality is ignorance.
The three distinct attainments in our philosophy: realization-nirvikalpa samadhi, moksha-liberation and merger-vishvagrasa. Believe in our ability to raise consciousness high and hold it. Every day live in the highest state of consciousness you can. Take on Siva's point of view, see divinity. Experience what's real. Pay attention to that aspect of you which is Siva.