Thank you for providing the links to the river of life upadeshas. Very candid indeed! Incidentally when a thought occurred about how Gurudeva would have meditated in the ‘Kelani’ (?) caves I ended up visiting the Luray Caverns in the Shenandoah Valley in the state of Virginia after 35 years! It is an amazing site and anyone who meditates should not miss a visit to this wonderful gift to mankind. Had it been in India it would have been overflowing with perhaps Rishis, Sadhus and serious meditators.
The letter "Ya" in the Panchakshara Mantra, Namasivaya, stands for the soul. Bodhinatha uses the Panchakshara Mantra to show how the soul is initially drawn by Siva's veiling grace, which leads the soul to maturity through experience in the world. Then comes Siva's revealing grace. When we've had enough of the world, Siva's grace pulls us toward God. The mantra also has the simple, two-syllable form. Si- Reflecting on God the Transcendent Absolute, Va-God as the All Pervading Consciousness